Thursday, October 28, 2010

Still trudging along

Things are still just carrying on over here. I missed a couple of weeks at Weight Watchers due to work, broken car and just a lot of stress in a lot of areas of my life. During those couple of weeks, my weight pretty much stayed the same - no more than a couple hundred grams up or down. I'll update about this week's weigh in later in the post.

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I find I still struggle, a lot, with emotional eating and for the last two weeks, I have fought the urge to raid the pantry every time I find myself grappling with my feelings. I don't want to be the girl who chows down on a pint of ice cream when she's sad. I don't want to inhale an entire party size bag of chips when I'm stressed about my work/family life balance. Nor do I want to be the girl who gorges on bunch of junk food to celebrate the successes.

For years, my eating has been very much tied to my emotions. Instead of dealing, appropriately, with my stress/anger/sadness/boredom/happiness/excitement.....I eat. It is something that I will likely always fight. It is something that I will likely never completely overcome and something that I will always need to be aware of. I hope it's something that my own daughter will never have to deal with.

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My October: Going the Distance Challenge has been going ok. This past Thursday, I did a LOT of walking. I walked to the school to get the kids (2 kms) and then walked home, at high speed to keep up with them on their scooters (2 kms). Later on I needed to go to work. Thanks to my car being in the shop and my step father's car being a bit sick as well, I ended up walking there and back (7.2 kms round trip). I was incredibly tired by the time I got home and found myself in bed very early.

I think all the walking helped though, because I did have a loss on the scales this week.

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I'm sure many of you have seen this article, by Marie Claire writer Maura Kelly, this week. It's been linked on Facebook, Twitter, multiple blogs and even in some emails I've received. I'm still actually digesting it and processing my own thoughts on the subject. I will do a post on it, in more detail, next week but for now I'll say that on the whole I think it was a very provocative post (duh!) and that she made one or two points that I agreed with in a SMALL way. But like I said, more on that later.

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Something that I am trying desperately to foster in my daughter is a healthy sense of self esteem. BUT!! I don't want it to stem from her perception of beauty. I want her to believe in herself as a whole. She needs to see herself as attractive inside AND out. I want her to be comfortable in her own skin, and happy with who she is as a person.

So, when our dear friend Medic posted the link to this video on Facebook, I was rapt. It is so fantastic. Please listen to ALL the words as she speaks. It really is amazing.



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So my loss for this week. After such a long, drawn out, plateau over the Winter, I am happy to say that Spring is looking up for me. I lost 1.2 kgs (2.64 lbs). That brings my total loss so far to 23.4 kgs (51.48 lbs).

Starting weight = 158.6 kgs (348.92 lbs)

Current weight = 135.2 kgs (297.44 lbs)

SO HAPPY!

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So what have you all been up to?

2 comments:

  1. Congrats on pushing past the plateau! That can be so tough to do, but you did it! Keep up the great work! And that video - WOW. Amazing.

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  2. Totally cool video.
    I've been ... sewing!
    lol
    have a lovely weekend.

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